Everything is for the best

there's some light even during the darkest night

there’s some light even in the dark of a night

Well, I sure hope that it is. After a give or take half a year at home and with no other income but unemployment allowance and some of my own saving, I’m more than eager to do anything, but get the hell out of here and actually do something. On the plus side, this long vacation was a useful break after almost 3 years of work work work with only few get-aways for a day or two at the most. On the downside, I’m never comfortable with watching my savings just melt away… Anyway, so far this break was mostly positive, so I’ll just try to keep it that way. So let’s just look for all the positive outcomes of this situation:
* I am full of energy, well rested, and ready to move mountains (though hopefully I don’t have to  or I might end up with some nations angry with me if I move their Alps)
* If all works out as planned, this is going to be my last week at home (a cautious hurray goes here and fingers crossed)
* I’m finally out of the ‘cage’.

What ‘cage’? The ‘cage’ of my own in-box thinking. Since for a couple of years I’ve been thinking about going back to school for my masters degree, and since I wanted to get this degree in a totally different field than my BA, that meant I needed to take some additional courses and only then would be eligible to apply. Problem was that I’d have had to pay both for the courses and for the masters studies. And money is always an issue for me – I’m never easy with parting with greater sums, and I’m even less attracted to the thought of taking a loan. So there you have it – a wish to go back to school and insufficient funds of my own to get me through 3 years at school. Well, after a couple of months at home, with much time spent outdoors and with somehow a much clearer head and brighter perspective, I had this eureka moment – why was I so fixated on getting the masters? I could achieve the very same goal and at much much lesser costs by starting over and getting my BAcc or BAE at college level instead of masters in the same field at pricey university. And so the plan has been hatched: step 1 – get a job, step 2 – back to school.

Making these plans public is like making a promise so I’d not back out at the very last moment. And hopefully principle of men making plans, and gods laughing at them will not be applicable just this once.

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While sometimes world may seem grey, in twilight's grey all the colors are hidden. Learning to find those colors is like making a collage from many and many scraps - it may seem hard, pieces might not fit at the first glance, but that scraps come together in the end. If you enjoy what you find, don't be shy.
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11 Responses to Everything is for the best

  1. Expat Eye says:

    Hope it all works out for you! This is one reason that I posted my plans to leave LV – once it’s there in black and white, you feel like you HAVE TO do it! 🙂


    • yup, some social pressure to break some sweat, and in case I start to look for ways out there’d always be some one to poke me right into the eye with ‘but haven’t you planed to…’ 😀
      So let’s wish the both of us the best of luck. Since I made this down to earth plans of going back to school I’ve been feeling a little frightened – going back after like 10 years since I’ve graduated is kind of scary


  2. June says:

    I know exactly how you feel. I’ve toyed with the idea of a masters for years but could never justify the cost of college or the “down time”. I came across this site last year which gave me new hope though – lots of free masters courses if you’re willing to travel. It’s worth a look. Your new plan sounds perfect, though – the best of luck with it. J.


    • June says:

      Can’t post the URL! It’s mastersportal(dot)eu!


    • Thank you, June. I really hope my plans will become body 🙂 Looking back I now kind of think that I never really needed masters, but rather was only fixated on the idea that if I want more school it should be masters and nothing else 😀
      And thanks for the link, it might come handy


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  4. Just wanted to say good luck with everything!! I’m in pretty much the same position, working like mad to pay for a very expensive masters degree after several years off from studying. It’s very exciting to make plans for a better life, and I really hope that it works out for you!!


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